Hey everyone I’m back posting! I know my last post wasn’t so much of an update but just to let you know that I had made my return lol. I know so many of you are so excited to see me again (riiight) hehe. But I figured I’d update since I’m not doing much but dancing in my bed to Madonna’s cd lol. I’m like addicted to her song 4 minutes it makes me wanna dance hehe. I don’t really understand the video. I mean okay she has four minutes to save the world so what does that have to do with you taking your clothes off? lol.

Since I last blogged back in November that was my last official post you can say. I must say a lot has happened and some have of it has been good and some has been bad. The good part about what has happened since November is I took my G.E.D test on December 19th and I can proudly say I am a high school graduate! So after I found out I passed my G.E.D in January after a long wait I applied for college! So I filled out my FAFSA after I applied to a community college and got accepted well I filled it out a little bit before than but it was okay hehe. So on April 7th I went to the college and registered for my classes and I’m gonna be taking 4 or 5 classes starting in the fall. Most of my classes are online but one which is my math class and I have to go to campus twice a week. I’m nervous about going to a college campus I know that its just for one class but its been a long time since I even been in a classroom. But I just have to remember that I’m only there for like a little over an hour and a half so its not too bad. Also if anyone is wondering my major is psychology! As far as my FAFSA goes I called the school yesterday (well today to me because I haven’t been to bed yet!) and they told me I was awarded the full amount but they couldn’t tell me how much I got over the phone so I have to wait for the letter to come in the mail.

Also since November I’ve had a birthday and it was my 21st birthday and I had a crappy birthday because my dad got me sick! So since I’ve been 21 I’ve only brought liquor once which was for my dad and I! I’m not really too big on drinking and I guess that’s because I’ve always had to be the level headed person out of everyone and didn’t really have fun like everyone else. Almost everyone who is 21 or just turned 21 keeps telling about how they get drunk and all I think about is if I did that how would I get home? I think its really with me I don’t wanna start a habit I won’t be able to control. Most people would say I’m a party pooper but I don’t really need liquor to have a good time I’m silly without the help of liquor. I mean don’t get me wrong I like to have something to drink every now and then but not all the time. I also don’t like being 21 because all the underage people like seek you out to buy them liquor and I’m not doing that. Not a lot minors have asked me mainly because I don’t go out anywhere anymore and that’s because gas is getting too expensive and there’s nothing to do here in this town.

Also more news that has happened my little 17 year old (well 18 now he had a birthday in April) got shot 11 times! It was crazy! He lives two hours away from us and its like a big city and there’s always crime. My mom and I always watch the news from there to see if anything has happened to our family. I know you are thinking if something happens to your family someone would most likely call…well you’re wrong they call us like days after something has happened! But what happened to cousin was he was at a party and it was a drive by shooting it was him and three of his other friends and my cousin got the worse of it because he tried to run. Anyone with common sense would try to run DUH! Nine bullets entered his body and two gazed his side and yes he’s still alive! I’m so thankful for that I believe our aunt was looking out for him and everyone else up in Heaven! The doctors thought at first that they would have to remove his leg because he got shot a lot in the leg and the bullets shattered his bones and hit an artery and they didn’t know if they were gonna be able to stop the bleeding but they were able to which is awesome! He’s out of the hospital and doing good. My cousin including him came down last Monday to visit and I was in the house but my mom and dad were outside and my mom said the first thing he asked when he got out of the van was where I was. I felt really special that he would ask about me lol. He came in the house to talk to me and his leg was all bandage up and he’s on crunches and for right now he has rod coming from his hip through his leg which is the reason why he can’t bend his leg. My cousin Joyce (his mom) told my mom that here soon that he’s gonna have to get some more surgeries to get bones put in his leg but I’m just happy that he’s doing better. He graduates this year but he won’t be walking across the stage or going across the stage from what Joyce told me because he doesn’t wanna look handicap but at least he’s graduating :). Joyce and I were talking about him after he left with some of our cousins to go to the basketball courts. She was telling me about how when he was rushed to the ER and she was telling me about how much blood he had loss and how she could take his shirt and ring the blood out of it. She made me laugh tho because she said that Jeremy (my little cousin) told her “Mama when I get better I want something to eat I’m hungry.” lol. But I know some of you are wondering how can you get shot 11 times and not die well the doctors told Joyce that Jeremy was very lucky that he even lived! But they found out who did it and apparently the guys got the wrong guys and I told my mom that is still no excuse for almost costing a 17 year old his life! Its not like you can just go out up and be like sorry dude I didn’t mean to hit you I got the wrong guy you forgive me?!

Also my friend Chris is gonna be a daddy again here in about a couple of weeks because his current girlfriend is pregnant with a little girl which I can’t wait to see what she looks like! Austin (his son) is getting so big! It was so cute because Kelly and I went to the salon and she went get her eyebrows waxed and I got mine for the first time EVER. Erica (Chris’ ex-girlfriend) was out there getting her hair done and Austin was walking around and he came over to where Kelly and I were and I was getting my eyebrows waxed and he stood next to me and was just watching me lol.

Also Kelly is pregnant and she’s having a little girl and I really can not wait to see what her baby will look like! I know it will be beautiful because Kelly is Mexican and I know her baby is gonna beautiful cold black hair and a pretty tan hehe. She told me she was pregnant on our way to go see Alvin and Chipmunks so she’s due in July and I can’t wait. We keep joking with her because she has a bit of O.C.D and we’re like you aren’t even let your daughter get dirty hehe. Like right now she doesn’t like people just like randomly coming up touching her belly hehe that girl is silly.

So all my friends and most of my friends from high school are either pregnant or have kids and guess what everyone!! I’m the last one standing! So I’m an army of one so they are all joking around with me asking me when I’m gonna get pregnant and I’m like uhm dunno but I know its not gonna be right now!

Also I’m waiting on my new hard drive my uncle is sending me for my dell (desktop). He sent me one before but it was messed up and wouldn’t work so I had to send it back but they haven’t sent him the replacement yet so he’s gonna call them tomorrow (today) to see what’s the problem. I’m so excited and can’t wait to get it because its a 500GB hard drive that’s like an uber amount of space dude! So hopefully he will call me today and let me know what they are talking about because they won’t tell me crap because I’m not him. I’m excited to get it because that means that I will be able to make more stuff for my site without having to worry about space. I have 40GB hard drive right now so that’s a 460GB update! I’m proud of myself because I put a dvd player in my computer all by myself and it worked lol. I had to put the dvd player in there unless my Sims 2 deluxe wouldn’t work and that irked me badly hehe.

So onto site news lol as you see I have a new layout up featuring Britney Spears! Yeah its just a temp layout I had to change the layout tho so I picked Britney Spears because no matter what anyone says I love Blackout album lol. But lately I’ve been obsessed with the Sims 2 and making clothes for them and hopefully I will get good enough to make a page of my creations for people to download! I also have a new affiliate which is Christina and you guys should go check out her site!

Alright this is a really long blog and I can’t believe I typed it all up! For all of you who actually read it thanks! I just wanted to catch everyone up on what has happened with me over the past four months. But like I stated in my blog before more detailed entries are on my livejournal. Well thanks for coming to my site!

Hey everyone! After almost 4 months (tomorrow) I’ve finally returned! This is just a quick update until I make a new layout and do a full update to get you guys caught up on everything that has happened in the past four months. I decide to bring my site back because of Christina after helping getting her site together and figure out I still had my skills lol. I will doing updates but they won’t be in too much of an detail because everyone can read this here so more detail posts are going on my livejournal account. So check back people and see what is going on with me! Thanks to everyone who left me on their affiliates list.

Hey everyone I’m going on hiatus if most of you haven’t noticed from my lack of updates. I’m just not really into web designing right now going through one of my phrases but I’m sure I’ll be back. But for right now I’m focus on livejournal and you can add me _babylove_x and you guys can also join my graphic community which is Exotic Design

Hey Everyone! I’m back again with a new layout and new blog! I’m on a roll you guys hehe. I didn’t like my old layout too much I dunno why but I just didn’t. This one is kinda simple you can say but I like it. So I have been watching the news again whoo because I’m a news freak sometimes. There was a story I heard just kinda disturbed me. I’ll talk about it and you guys can tell me what you feel about the story. When I heard about it I was sad. So yes its a sad story.

Alright so I was flipping through the channels and well I stopped on CNN (which isn’t my favorite network right now) because I seen something about cyber-bullying. Well I had to just stop and watch it because its something interesting to me. In the lower right hand corner it had something to do with Myspace and we all know the trouble Myspace has gotten into right? Well this was just another story. A little 13-year-old girl near O’Fallon, Missouri (for you guys who don’t know its near St. Louis, MO) which isn’t too far from me. Well anyhow she got teased at school for being overweight and such things which most of us know how that goes. Anyhow she had stopped talking to one of her friends she just decided to end their friendship and later on that year things started looking up for her she lost weight. Well she met this guy on Myspace who was 16 years old and he found her cute and her mom said she could add him (she monitored her myspace because she got in trouble before on there). Her mom had no problem with them talking because she had been watching and he never asked for a phone number so she figured it was okay. Well 3 weeks before her 14th birthday she had gotten a message from this guy saying he didn’t know if he wanted to her friend because he heard she wasn’t very nice to her friends (but the guy was claimed to be home schooled). After she got that message she was confused and upset and she was crying and she told her mom that people where picking on her posting things calling her a slut and stuff and her mom read them was mad at her for the language she used and that made the girl even more upset because she figured she was her mo and she would be on her side right? Well she rushed to her room and she was still upset and after awhile her mom was worried because it had been really quiet for a long time so her mom went to go check on her and she found her hung from her closet with a belt. The next day she passed away three weeks before her 14th birthday. Her dad went into her myspace account (because him and his wife knew the password) and he read a message from the “guy” saying Everybody in O’Fallon knows how you are. You are a bad person and everybody hates you. Have a shitty rest of your life. The world would be a better place without you.”

This story gets more disturbing! The day she passed away the guy’s profile was deleted. They later found out that it was someone in their own neighborhood it was a parent. It was the parents of their daughter’s ex-friend they wanted to make a Myspace account and try to get her trust and find out if she was saying anything about their daughter. Apparently they got some kids involved too and tried to get their parents involved as well.

I mean seriously how sick do you have to be! I mean this is why I chose what I did for my future job! I want to be a counselor for teens. I know how things go because I have been in their position before. I mean its just shocking that parents would do something like this to a teenage girl. Her stated that, “Ultimately, it was Megan’s choice to do what she did, he says.
But it was like someone handed her a loaded gun.’ ” (Read the story here..)

I have found this story so sad because I have been in her place. I have thought about suicide when I was in my teens but was never brave enough to do it. I use to think that the world would be better off without me in it. I mean I know that most people have thought or have tried suicide. There is so much stereotype in this world that its sad. Its sad that teens today feel like they aren’t good enough or pretty enough because they don’t look a certain way and their parents don’t have what other parents have. Its also sad that we allow ourselves to worry more about what others think of ourselves than we do. I hope that one day we will be able to do that just to know that its not what others think of you its about what you see and how you feel when you look in the mirror.

So for girls like Megan and the other millions of teens who are thinking they aren’t great like they are India.Arie’s song Video goes out to you guys! I think this song sums it all up!

So on to some maybe brighter news? Thanksgiving is coming up! How many are thinking that this year is going by fast raise your hand lol. I do!! We are ready for Thanksgiving we got the rest of the things we needed Wednesday. They are talking about snow a day or two before Thanksgiving! Isn’t that crazy?! I’m happy about Thanksgiving because I Love Lucy comes on for 12 straight hours! Whoo! I love that show!! My parents think I’m crazy but I find it funny hehe.

So onto my site news as you see I have a new layout up! Whoo go me lol. I’m gonna be redoing my loved section on my sidebar and the page as well. I’m gonna try to do some psds since its been awhile since I cut any out. I’m trying to get into making icons but I’m not too good with those. I’m also trying to think of a Christmas layout but I suck at them as well lol. So if anyone knows where I can get some good Christmas brushes and pictures please let me know.

Well that’s my blog! I hope that it wasn’t that boring for you guys! I’m gonna try to post more but at this point my life is somewhat boring lol.

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Listening to: India.Arie - Just For Today